Lapis lazuli thread. Collection of poems

                  I'm waiting for you, my soul.

                  Consumed by longing,

                  I can only pray for one thing from —

                  Be near and love me.

                  And I will be yours forever,

                  So simple and good-natured,

                  With the meaning of which

                  Every day and every hour is filled,

                  Because only you are able

                  To give life to my heart,

                  Which has not been beating for a long time,

                  But only silent and fading.

                  Will I be able to forgive myself?

                  Will I be able to save my life?

                  How much pain, how many tears…

                  I haven't seen the light for so long

                  That I'm ready to fall into darkness.

                  But you managed to give me

                  Something that I have long lost —

                  My beautiful hope,

                  Which led to the birth

                  Of a love that I have never

                  Dreamed of before in the sweetest dreams.

                  And with it came fear,

                  The fear that everything that exists

                  Is just a beautiful, but a mirage.

                  Spring 2018

                         Your soul is a dense forest,

                         Beauties of which are innumerable.

                         Shrouded in thick fog

                         And watered by rains,

                         It is filled with warmth and cold,

                         Leading me to salvation,

                         And with that, to my downfall.

                         Your eyes, stupefying my mind,

                         Are able to give comfort.

                         And in the most difficult hour —

                         With your warm hands,

                         With your warm words,

                         Only you are able to support,

                         Only you are able to revive.

                         The colors fade without you,

                         In the distance I'm suffocating, dying —

                         I want to hug you so much

                         And never let go,

                         To surrender both soul and body.